Numbers

Todd told me that if I do a diet that I should do it all the way. Fallow all the rules and do it right. My dad used to say the same thing. Anyway. Since this time I am doing Todd's "diet"and he says not to worry about numbers, from this point forward, I'm not going to. I am done worrying about numbers. The only place numbers get me is discouraged.

I worked my butt off this week. I have ran or strength trained everyday. Yesterday we went for a hike and I did my 25 min ball workout. That should count for 2 right? :-) But I did eat not so great either, and I gained. GAINED! I was so mad! I shouldn't have gained. But I did. So I am going to run and work out. ONLY because it makes me feel good to do it. I want to run the Ragnar next year so I will train to do it, not just to loose weight. I want to feel good about my self. After all the crap I hear and have learned growing up, that won't be an easy task. I might always worry about the numbers, but for now I am going to do my best to not worry.

Reprograming your mind to work away from numbers is a big deal. As women those numbers are everywhere. Your pant size, weight, inches, shoe size for peet-sake is a stupid number. But the fact is we all come in different sizes, shapes, colors, and personalities. Those are what make the world interesting. I write this now and hopefully can keep looking back and see that I am ok the way I am. I want to improve and that is good, but I need to accept what I am, who I am, and be Ok with that.

I like all of you. I don't judge you on numbers. I should do the same for myself.