Nothin new...

Things are the same. But I am working hard and feeling good. So I guess that's it.

Sleeping

So Todd and I are addicted to watching the show Bones. We watch it on Netflix. It's affecting my sleep. I go to bed too late and wake up too late. I need to go to bed earlier so I can get up earlier and feel the need to exercise.

I woke up late this morning and now I have no desire to go run. But I need to. I really need to. Maybe I will go now...maybe I will go with Todd tonight...maybe not, still deciding.

Running

Saturday Todd and I went running. It. was. hot. That's all I have to say about it. oh- and mornings are better to run!

Numbers

Todd told me that if I do a diet that I should do it all the way. Fallow all the rules and do it right. My dad used to say the same thing. Anyway. Since this time I am doing Todd's "diet"and he says not to worry about numbers, from this point forward, I'm not going to. I am done worrying about numbers. The only place numbers get me is discouraged.

I worked my butt off this week. I have ran or strength trained everyday. Yesterday we went for a hike and I did my 25 min ball workout. That should count for 2 right? :-) But I did eat not so great either, and I gained. GAINED! I was so mad! I shouldn't have gained. But I did. So I am going to run and work out. ONLY because it makes me feel good to do it. I want to run the Ragnar next year so I will train to do it, not just to loose weight. I want to feel good about my self. After all the crap I hear and have learned growing up, that won't be an easy task. I might always worry about the numbers, but for now I am going to do my best to not worry.

Reprograming your mind to work away from numbers is a big deal. As women those numbers are everywhere. Your pant size, weight, inches, shoe size for peet-sake is a stupid number. But the fact is we all come in different sizes, shapes, colors, and personalities. Those are what make the world interesting. I write this now and hopefully can keep looking back and see that I am ok the way I am. I want to improve and that is good, but I need to accept what I am, who I am, and be Ok with that.

I like all of you. I don't judge you on numbers. I should do the same for myself.

Observation

I was running (and walking) at the gym today when a lady came and ran right next to me. I didn't look to close at her. She was slim and seemed athletic, but like I said I didn't look to close. She was running faster than I was, but she would stop every once and a while to rest. I am not saying this because I was judging her. I was impressed she could run that fast. I am a pretty slow runner. However, I did stop and think, at least I keep going. I might not run the whole time, but I don't stop. I will take breaks and walk but at least I am still moving.

The other thing I thought is how nice it will be in a few months to be one of the ladies running that seem to keep running at a steady pace for quite a while. I can't wait for that!

Thanks!

Thanks for the motivating comments! So far so good (ha ha it's been two days) But, I ran yesterday for 25 min. I made it just under 2 miles. I thought I was going to die. lol (sort of) but I felt good after I got past the thinking I'm going to puke or pass out stage. I decided 25 min every other day for now is a good starting point. I am also going to be alternating that with weight training on the other days.

I really like the ball work out. I feel like it's more fun and I get a good work out. I did that today. It felt good. Now to work on the "diet" part. I, for the most part, did good yesterday, but I still need to work on the sugar. I LOVE chocolate. I need, want and crave it all the time. So I am not going to cut it out all together, but try to stick to a bite or two not a candy bar or two.

Anyway, so here's to another day!

geez...

I need to be more consistent at blogging on this blog. I guess maybe I should be more consistent at working out...lol.

I was going to do the HCG one last ditch time to try and get rid of my last 5-10 lbs that I really want off, but after the first day of HCG I thought "Do I really want to starve my-self for 3 weeks again?!" Then in talking to a friend that is doing the Atkins diet, they sounded so similar minus the starving part, that I thought I would switch to that instead. But that wasn't such a great idea. I have only been on it for 2 days, but both days I wake up with my kidney screaming at me (yes they scream) and I figured the pain is just not worth it. Not to mention I gained about 1 lb.

Back-track a few days...my cousins were over for a dinner and they were talking about the Ragnar. I know several people who have done it and they all say it was totally worth it and enjoyed every minute. After a debate in which they all reassured me that if I just ran a little a few times a week, I could do it. I kept trying to tell them that I don't love running, but they all said you don't have to in order to do the Ragnar.

SO....after letting it fester (the idea, that is)...I think I'm gonna do it next year. Crazy, I know. I don't love running, but I think I want to do it so that I can say I have. I know I can do a 5k. I haven't ever run in an official race, but I have timed it out and done it. So I know I can do what I put my mind to. Todd is going to help me. We are going also going to try to come up with a lower calorie, filling, non-kidney hurting, "diet" that I HOPE will help me loose those extra lbs. But my over-all goal, which it has always been, is to feel good about my-self. Do something for me that makes me feel good. I am going to do this and I want all three of you that read this, to yell at me every time I don't exercise...and yes I expect you to know. lol.